Hello lovelies! I know it’s been a while. I honestly didn’t know what to write about and then I got sick, therefore I was lacking in posts. I know, no excuses!!! I’m back now though and will hopefully be posting more frequently, or at least once finals are over with, I should be.
Lately, I have had something weighing heavily on my heart and that’s, where do I belong? Since starting my sophomore year of college I’ve been feeling a little lost. I believe this is the case because some dynamics in my life have changed and I suddenly don’t know where I belong. Don’t get me wrong, I’m involved in a lot, between choir, Cru, and campus ministry, and I love every minute of it, but other than that I find myself confused. Friends I was once so close with have moved on to other things. They participate in activities I don’t really care for. The thing I didn’t realize though, is how hard it would be to pull myself out of a whole friend group, with just me an one other still close. I still see and talk to them, but we don’t make an effort to see one another. The hardest part about this though, is trying to move on and make new friends, especially since I am an introvert and most people have found their place. I still have plenty of close friends back home, but I can’t see them everyday. The world we live in today doesn’t allow for making new friends easily. I don’t like to do the things most young adults do. I don’t like to drink, or party, or smoke. That’s just not for me. I rather watch a movie on Netflix or do some crafting.I’m really just an old lady at heart. I’m not the girl who gets invited out to do things or to hangout because people know I don’t partake in the tasks they participate in. Sadly, the people at school I am close to usually leave on the weekends, leaving me feeling lonely. I’ve started to get use to it and I’m learning to branch out and spend time with new friends and participate in fun and new activities. By doing this, I have met some really amazing people who are actually quite a bit like me.
What I want people to get from this is that no matter what, there are people out there who are just like you and you don’t need to change to find them. I was afraid that in order to rekindle relationships, or find new ones, I was going to have to do things I didn’t want to, but God placed the right people in my life at the right time. One weekend, as the loneliness was setting in, I had a friend, one I don’t get to see as often, invite me out to breakfast, which was great, and then we got to go ice skating that same day. It allowed us several hours of conversation and getting to know each other better. Just getting to talk and become closer with someone I already knew made all the difference. The next day we even went to see a movie together. I realized that those are the kinds of friendships and relationships I want, healthy ones rooted in Christ. Sometimes you have to put old friendships behind you, and it’s hard, but ultimately it’s for the better. Through prayer and letting God lead the way, you make room for so many new and awesome opportunities. Regardless of where you are in life or what you like to do, there is someone out there for you. If you ever feel lost or alone I challenge you to just pray or if you need someone to talk to, I am all ears. Just like God has a plan for our lives he has a plan for our friendships and in the end he is our ultimate and number one friend.
“Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends.” – John 15:13