Where Do I Belong?

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Hello lovelies! I know it’s been a while. I honestly didn’t know what to write about and then I got sick, therefore I was lacking in posts. I know, no excuses!!! I’m back now though and will hopefully be posting more frequently, or at least once finals are over with, I should be.

Lately, I have had something weighing heavily on my heart and that’s, where do I belong? Since starting my sophomore year of college I’ve been feeling a little lost. I believe this is the case because some dynamics in my life have changed and I suddenly don’t know where I belong. Don’t get me wrong, I’m involved in a lot, between choir, Cru, and campus ministry, and I love every minute of it, but other than that I find myself confused. Friends I was once so close with have moved on to other things. They participate in activities I don’t really care for. The thing I didn’t realize though, is how hard it would be to pull myself out of a whole friend group, with just me an one other still close. I still see and talk to them, but we don’t make an effort to see one another. The hardest part about this though, is trying to move on and make new friends, especially since I am an introvert and most people have found their place. I still have plenty of close friends back home, but I can’t see them everyday. The world we live in today doesn’t allow for making new friends easily. I don’t like to do the things most young adults do. I don’t like to drink, or party, or smoke. That’s just not for me. I rather watch a movie on Netflix or do some crafting.I’m really just an old lady at heart. I’m not the girl who gets invited out to do things or to hangout because people know I don’t partake in the tasks they participate in. Sadly, the people at school I am close to usually leave on the weekends, leaving me feeling lonely. I’ve started to get use to it and I’m learning to branch out and spend time with new friends and participate in fun and new activities. By doing this, I have met some really amazing people who are actually quite a bit like me.

What I want people to get from this is that no matter what, there are people out there who are just like you and you don’t need to change to find them. I was afraid that in order to rekindle relationships, or find new ones, I was going to have to do things I didn’t want to, but God placed the right people in my life at the right time. One weekend, as the loneliness was setting in, I had a friend, one I don’t get to see as often, invite me out to breakfast, which was great, and then we got to go ice skating that same day. It allowed us  several hours of conversation and getting to know each other better. Just getting to talk and become closer with someone I already knew made all the difference. The next day we even went to see a movie together. I realized that those are the kinds of friendships and relationships I want, healthy ones rooted in Christ. Sometimes you have to put old friendships behind you, and it’s hard, but ultimately it’s for the better. Through prayer and letting God lead the way, you make room for so many new and awesome opportunities. Regardless of where you are in life or what you like to do, there is someone out there for you. If you ever feel lost or alone I challenge you to just pray or if you need someone to talk to, I am all ears. Just like God has a plan for our lives he has a plan for our friendships and in the end he is our ultimate and number one friend.

“Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends.”  – John 15:13

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You can’t be all the things.

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I want to be all the things.

If I am given a space to simply breathe and be completely honest then that’s the truth I choose to share: I want to be all the things.

I want to be a friend. I want to be a good friend. I want to be a best friend to every little human I encounter. I want to be a sister. A daughter. A girlfriend. A wife.

I want to be the person who gets called at two in the morning. I want to be the one who shows up at the door with coffee and a heart that is just ready and amped for whatever truth you want to let sit square in the middle of the kitchen table. I want to take people as they are. I want to hold people as they come.

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A Letter of Thanks to Mom and Dad

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Unfortunately I am a little under the weather right now, but I did not want to let that stop me from writing a new post, especially since I’ve been in bed all day. It may be short and not the best, but it’s something I wanted to touch on.Today I’m going to focus on Mom and Dad/family. No matter how old we are I believe we should always appreciate our parents. With Thanksgiving fast approaching I thought it would be a cool idea to write a letter of thanks to my parents. Many of you may be able to relate to this as well, so feel free to share.

Dear Mom and Dad,

There are so many things I want to thank you for.  Here are a few. Thank you for your loving arms that I could run to when I was younger, your kind words and comfort when I’m upset, for always believing in me, and for being my heroes. I love you way more than I will ever be able to express. You taught me how to be a woman and planted me as a seed in Christ. You put up with my craziness and my attitude during the adolescent years. I’m not perfect and I never will be, but to you I was and still am your everything. Thank you for letting me cuddle with you on nights when I was young and would have nightmares. Thank you for mending my broken heart numerous times. Thank you for always providing for me and making me your top priority. I know for many parents children bring joy into their lives, but I believe it is the same in reverse. You two have brought an immense amount of joy into my life. You taught me how to laugh and have fun and you’ve guided me through the toughest times. You are two of my best friends and no matter what, I know I can always count on you. Thank you for getting me where I am today and for helping me with college and for supporting me, and most of all thank you for always loving me! I would be nothing without you two.

Love, Sarah ❤

While writing this short little letter of thanks I realized how many kids out there are not as fortunate as I. Some don’t have parents or some don’t have the right kind of parents. My parents were blessed with the gift of love and the knowledge for raising two daughters, but not everyone gets to have such gifts and not everyone gets to have family. I just want to encourage everyone this Thanksgiving and Christmas season to think of those who don’t have or are without. Some children may have lost their parents or they could have parents off at war. Some may not have food or a home or they could just be all alone. For some this could be the first thanksgiving without a loved one. Let us think of these people as we enjoy our time with family this season and may we be able to find ways to bring joy to them even if it’s just through a simple prayer. I wish everyone the best this Thanksgiving and Christmas. May Christ’s joy fill every single one of your hearts.

xoxo Sarah

Someday Your Prince Will Come (How to Be Okay with Being Single)

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Hello everyone! I’m back at it with another post today. I wasn’t really sure what I wanted to write about or if I could beat my last entry. I wanted to discuss another relatively heavy topic, the R word, relationships. Many of you who have known me for a long time or who just know me really well would know that I have never been in a relationship and you know what? I’m not afraid to admit it. This post is mainly for the single ladies out there, but it can be read by anyone and may even help those in a relationship. Also to all my ladies in relationships, I’m planning on working on a post for you too. Happy reading!

For the longest time I just felt like I was not worth it, that no guy liked me, or that I had something plaguing me to keep guys away. In reality though none of those things were true and none of the guys I liked were right for me. I want todays article to focus on how it is okay to be single and that someday your prince will come. I can’t guarantee that he’ll come in the form of a Disney prince or Channing Tatum, but I’m sure he’ll be even better.

Most of my life I’ve liked all sorts of guys, tall ones, short ones, sporty ones, preppy ones, the list is ongoing. Each time I really seemed to fall head over heels for a guy though, I would get denied. It definitely stung for a while, like it does most times when your heart gets broken, but it wasn’t anything some Ben and Jerry’s and a good cry couldn’t fix. There were also the times when I had guys who liked me, but I honestly didn’t like them back and as much as I hated it, I had to be the bad guy and turn them down. Year after year living the single life, watching my friends date, and fearing I would one day become a crazy cat lady, I learned something. I realized how much I value my independence and that I don’t need a guy to define me and to all of my single ladies out there, you don’t need a guy to define you either. Believe me I know it’s tough to be single. Relationships surround us, from movies to TV and the cute couples you see walking down the street. Usually I am one of the only single ones in my friend group, but I’ve learned to be okay with that and so can you.

Being in a relationship is time consuming and it takes a lot of work and effort. Having a boyfriend is not like having the newest designer handbag. He’s not just something to show off, but a living breathing person who has feelings. That’s why you want to make sure you don’t settle for any guy because you are feeling lonely or desperate. That can lead to a whole lot of heartache on both sides. In order to save yourself some heartache I have one major piece of advice and that is to value your independence.

For the longest time I would question why God had not placed a special guy in my life, but then I realized that he knew I was just fine on my own. Being independent gives you a chance to better understand yourself and if you don’t know yourself well enough then how can a guy get to know you? It allows you to better see what you are really looking for in a guy and what you want him to see in you. The independence also helps you to love yourself and see yourself as a single person not as someones other half. This also goes for the non-single ladies. I believe that every woman deserves to show herself a little love. Have a spa night, watch a movie, read a book, paint your nails, just do something that is solely for yourself. Once you see that you love yourself it makes it easier to be loved by others.

Sometimes not loving yourself or being confident isn’t the issue, but sometimes it’s really because the right guy hasn’t come along. God has a special guy out there for all of us girls. I pray every night that he’s preparing a Godly man for my future and I’m learning to be okay with his timing. No, it’s definitely not easy, but when the right guy comes along in the end, it will be oh so worth it. You will have saved yourself a lot of heartache if you just wait for God’s timing as opposed to searching and settling with anyone. While you wait just enjoy the time you have to be single because once mister right comes along, and you hear wedding bells in the near future, you don’t get your single life back. Live it up! Do something daring, make it a weekly goal to have a girls night with your closest friends, surround yourself with positive guy influences, seek God with all of your heart, and don’t dwell on the future. I know every girl desires to have that picture perfect relationship or to date, and some girls get it/start sooner than others, but just remember that it is all a part of God’s timing and his plan for you. You are a beautiful child of God and someday you too will get your prince.

“I adjure you, oh daughters of Jerusalem, by the gazelles or the does of the field, that you do not stir up or awaken love until it pleases.” – Song of Solomon 2:7

“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord,plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans of hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11 (aka my favorite verse :))

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A Curvy Girl in a Skinny World (learning to love yourself)

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Hey ya’ll! Today’s post is going to get a little bit personal, but I feel like it’s something I needed to share. Just about all my life my weight has been a struggle. As a small child I was a decent weight, maybe even a little under weight. I was a very picky eater though and sweets were my best friend. Sadly though their name is deceiving. They may taste sweet, but their results are sour. As I hit adolescence I started to pack on some pounds. It was almost inevitable as the weight genes run in my family. Throughout middle school I didn’t let it bother me though, mainly because everyone is awkward at that point in time. Once I hit high school though I hit a low. I began not liking myself and my appearance. I felt unworthy of having a guy like me, I would avoid mirrors, and any sort of attention. Occasionally my parents would say something or someone would make a comment. When college came around I was able to build myself up a little and add a little bit of confidence to my personality. With college though, came the freshman 15, late night snacking, bad sleeping habits, and dining hall food. It was also hard watching my friends eat twice as much as me, but never gaining a pound, where as I could eat half of their portion size and put on two. I lost hope in myself and my weight. I scolded myself for becoming this way and becoming “fat.” During this rough time I even had a guy tell me he wasn’t physically attracted to me because I was carrying a few extra pounds. I now realize that wasn’t right by any means, but then I took it to heart and began hating myself more. Recently though, I have had a change in heart and have reached a breakthrough. I turned to one of my favorite pass times, youtube, and came across some curvy girls who make beauty videos. They show you how you can properly dress your curves and how to accept yourself. They are so gorgeous and so confident and I just realized that, no matter what your size is, you can be happy and feel beautiful. I’m learning to love my curves and I realize that God gave them to me. By not loving myself I am doing a great injustice to God, because this body is not mine, but it is his. I know living in a world surrounded by skinny models, weight loss plans, and a skinny body being idolized is anything but easy. Honestly though, that’s not what matters. What matters is that you are happy with yourself. I want you to stop reading this and do me a favor. Go take a look in the mirror and tell yourself that YOU are beautiful because you are. I see it and God sees it. Learning to love yourself can open up so many doors. By learning to love my curves I’m actually healthier. I exercise more often, but it’s because I’m not trying to kill myself in order to drop pounds. I now enjoy it more and focus on what I’m doing and not what’s going to come from it. I also have a healthier relationship with myself. I also take what others say with a grain of salt because this is my body and not theirs. Who knows, one day I may be able to drop several pounds or maybe even 50, but I’ll never forget where I started and what it taught me. This body has been with me through everything, from the many beatings it has taken due to my clumsiness, or the firsts, liking learning to ride a bike or graduating high school. No matter what your body is always with you and will always be a part of you. Big, little, short, tall, skinny, curvy, whatever you are don’t forget who you are and whose you are. We are all beautiful and deserve to love ourselves as God loves us.

For you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body. 1 Corinthians 6:20

About a Girl and Her Blog

Well lets start with the basics. I’m Sarah, the girl behind the screen, of course and I’m an aspiring elementary school teacher studying at Marymount University. I’m pretty introverted at first, but I do love to talk and make people laugh once they get to know me. I love all things beauty and would actually love to be a cosmetologist on the side one day. I also love to cook and sing. Music is my life and I listen to it just about anywhere. Another passion I have kept in hiding for a while is writing. That’s why I decided to create a blog. I decided it was time to give the world a little taste of what I can do. It’s going to get personal sometimes and I’m going to let a lot out. It’s not going to be easy, but lets be real, when is anything ever easy? I want to be a source of light in this world. My goal is to at least brighten one persons day. I want to offer advice to others and share my ideas on life. I’m also very open to requests if you ever want to hear my view or opinion on something or if you ever just want to know more. This blog isn’t just for me and my sake, but for everyone who reads it. It’s not just mine but it’s ours!

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So… I decided to branch out and do something I’ve always wanted to do, create a blog! I thought it would be cool to give people more of a look into my life and to get to know me on a different level. For my first entry I’m not a hundred percent sure what to write about. I have a lot of current events to top, from Kim Kardashian’s butt to which Duggar child will marry next. Just kidding! That’s not what this blog is going to be about. I really just want to share my life, the good times and bad, the struggles I face, and advice to others. I may even throw a little beauty, fashion, and cooking in as well. I’m an open book and I have a blank page so why not share my story.